March 23rd: Massacre
A says: Chance to shoot you
R says: is that wat i'm gonna get for inviting you!?
A says: oh, typo. sorri i meant shoot WITH you though i think i might accidentally shoot you
R says: i'm unsure if i could go or not tho cos my roster aint out yet
A says: walau, no fun liao, you're my partner in crime, I'm like batman and you're robin
R says: how come u get to be batman!? and what kinda partner in crime who might accidentally shoot the other partner?
A says: obviously. that's what 'R' stands for, right? what kind of partner? hmm... a good partner?
R says: *stare daggers*
Ms. Rae's so gonna pawn your sorry arse, Mr. Alvin.
Yes. It's about time (though it's a month away...). Another round of killing spree.
Woo hoo!
Flotsam of the day:
While W scouting for a cab and R dialling the cab company after dindin. (Club Street is one stupid place to get a cab, by the way)
W: How do you tell if she's a nice girl or she's just up for....
R: Ask her 'how much'... Wait a sec. What did you just ask?
W: LMAO
One hell of an impression, Rae.
posted by Rae @ 00:35
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And The Battle Shall Begin
You know you're done for when:
- your boss who came back from a two-week-hol's commented that you've gotten fat.
- your jogging pants are a tad too tight.
It gets worse when you landed yourself a hot date.
Alrighty, gonna go try those super high-tech and sophisticated socks of hers...
p.s. - Never understand why some peeps like to 'catch up' and talk in the club. Don't they think it's too loud and too fun?
posted by Rae @ 21:05
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All She Needs are Just a Couple Pair of Socks
Socks.
Main Entry: 1sock
Pronunciation: \ˈsäk\
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural socks
Etymology: Middle English socke, from Old English socc, from soccus
Date: before 12th century
1 archaic : a low shoe or slipper
2 also plural sox \ˈsäks\ : a knitted or woven covering for the foot usually worn under shoes and extending above the ankle and sometimes to the knee
3 a: a shoe worn by actors in Greek and Roman comedy b: comic drama
— sock·less adjective
Merriam-Webster
How complicated can socks be yeah?
She found that out today.
Nike Sphere fabric - 3-D texture promotes airflow and wicks moisture to help keep feet cool and dry- Left/Right specific - Enhanced fit, maximum comfort and performance
- Arch support - Secure, stable fit
- Footstrike cushioning - Aligned with pressure patterns on athletes' feet to help put comfort exactly where it's needed
Say what? They are just socks. The reason she picked those pair up was that she digs the design and the colour. Don't ask how much they are. Let's just say when her eyes nearly popped out when she saw what the amount was on the cash register.
Lesson of the day: check the price before buying.
And because of that 'Left/Right specific', her socks sport 'L' and 'R' respectively. How cool is that! *coughmegadouchecough*
Tune of the day: With You - Chris Brown. Now, Rae isn't a big fan of Chris Brown cos he sang that stupid version of Umbrella but this song is just hmm..... just nice.
posted by Rae @ 00:36
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Whenever You Fall, Pick Something Up.
What Oswald Avery said is a spot-on.
Anyway, two years ago today she gave everything up back home and flew to Singapore to pursue her happiness (Love the way Angel, I put it). Two years ago? TWO YEARS AGO? She's here for two years already?! Wow, time sure flies fast. Two years ago, she was the girl full of hopes and dreams and courage. Remembered the excitement and sadness. They were overwhelming. Remembered how hard she fought back tears while on the way to the airport. Everything's all coming back to her now. How her decision turned against her. Not a bad thing, at least she found out what kind of man he was. Everything happened so fast yet so slow.
At least she was lucky. God didn't forsake her. God sent I to her. Gave her shelter and refuge. It only took a text message to I and I welcomed her with open arms and with no questions asked. She remembered the time she packed her things and walked out that door. She remembered the taxi ride to I's place. She remembered the numb feeling. She remembered Singaporeans celebrated their country's independence that day. She remembered the bus ride to the airport with I's husband to get I from a turnaround flight. She remembered the comfort I provided. She remembered the weird dreamless and peaceful sleep she had that night. It was the turning point. It was what shaped the weird-ass Rae today.
All too familiar. Way too familiar to the present. It's just that position's swapped. She cannot. Cannot. Cannot. Just cannot let that happen. That's why she won't wait. It's something she can't bear.
Walao, damn too emo to crap now that she's gonna stop now. Just this one more emo post and that's it Rae, you damn windbag and drama queen. Look forward, Rae! See those gorgeous hot guys waiting for you!?
Wait a minute, this is way too weird and funny. Why is whatever that's happening happen at this time? The nature of it. The timeline. Huh??!!
Mr. God, what kind of game are You playing with Rae this time?
Addendum: Jonesing for portobellos and garlic. *Off to the kitchen*
posted by Rae @ 00:02
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The Finest Steel Has to Go Through the Hottest Fire
Sometimes when I open my mouth
It's anyone's guess what might come out
Last one to know is usually me
-Alice Peacock
The void is so significant that a sudden pang hits Rae right in the heart in the morning when she opens her eyes to greet the day. The last time she had those pangs was a year ago when she thought her heart was crushed beyond repair. Of course being the drama mama she is, things aren't that devastating and she managed to get up and smile again (all thanks to THE MAN above and angel, I).
She's lost her texting buddy, drinking buddy, movie buddy and NG partner-in-crime at the same time. She can no longer be Spongebob (her own private joke). She misses you heaps but she jolly knows well there's nothing you and her can do about it. Damages are done in so many levels that she'd to be the one to say goodbye for now first. There are so times she'd wanna pick up that phone and tell you why but she knows you'd not understand because if you did, you wouldn't say what you're saying and do what you're doing. In fact, she almost did last night but the brain and conscience did a great job. She has to stay away from you for her sake and yours too. It makes the world a better place for everyone at this time. Words said and things done can be interpreted in so many ways. They say a lot about that person and they showed her a few things about you that cracked her heart.
She's always believed that the right guy will bring the best and the cow out in a girl. You did somewhat bring the best out in her. She learned to be patient. She learned to trust herself again. She learned to enjoy so many things. You showed and taught her many things. But hey, where's the frigging cow?! XD
She's pissed with herself for not being the (wo)man of her words. She's fully aware of the pact you and her (somewhat) made during the new year. She's sorry for hurting you that way. Frankly, she's dying to stick to the pact but hey, you know how it is. Gee, there are so many things left to be done yet. Her NG t-shirt. Long Beach. Sharkhead. Wait a minute. Oi, did you purposely hold them off? -_-
Despite how much she misses you and stuff, she's still glad that she kneed you in the balls the other night.
On a lighter note, it's Mr. Chang's 58th birthday today. Wished she was home celebrating it (that seafood dindin didn't count!). Ah shoot, she hasn't really talk much about her trip back home during CNY.
Ok. More far out story-telling.
Are you ready, B?
Here we go!
Mr. & Mrs. Chang looked so much older now. Even Granma Chang looked older and smaller (she prepared Rae's favorite, pig's heart!). She knows not what to say but she sure didn't like what she saw. Chang Jr's hairline's receding and the butt's getting huge (You hear her!?) despite being just 2 years older than Rae. Hur hur hur. Baby Chang looks pretty much the same. Otherwise, the family's good. Mrs. Chang asked if Rae starved herself in Singapore while Mr. Chang, being the man of few words he is, said nothing much but Rae knows well she's his little girl no matter what.
Rae didn't get to do the things she planned because she fell very sick that week (although that didn't really stop her from pigging out). To cut things short, she:
- mah-jonged til wee hours
- mucked around with four-legged Changs at home. No long walks :((((((((((
- ate and ate and ate
- slept
- had Mr. Chang drive her around because her driver's license expired. Felt like a kid all over again
- renewed her driver's license (the photo's so shit)
- didn't have to go to the bank (yes!!!)
- got to meet her jolly friend who flew back from NZ for CNY (Missed you heaps! Missed hitting Tanjong Pagar with you! Can't wait to see you again when she flies to NZ!). That kahlua and long island were so shit beyond belief that night eh?!
- didn't do pig-out session with fellow pig, Benjiman
- didn't try that steakhouse out
- didn't shout Mrs. Chang the message she's promised
- visited great granma (haven't seen her for a few years now. Wow... she aged so much... is that cataract?! used to spent her school hol's at great gran's)
- got free hair makeover at her sister and the boyfriend's fairly new salon; the straightening rebelled against her but loved that red hue
- celebrated Mr. Chang's 59th lunar calendar birthday (which is 4th day of 1st month. Rae's 28th day of 5th month. Do you know your lunar calendar birthday?). As usual, at that old skool seafood restaurant. Wanted to do a fancy one with lobster and that whatchamacallit premium grouper but got there too late. Ended up with that weird catfish. Wahahaha!
- looted Mrs. Chang's half dozen of bird's nest. Hur hur hur.
Oh oh, Mr. Chang's beloved kois are growing at a weird rate; that kigoi now measures at at least one and a 
half feet while that most-prized kohaku which made the Chang siblings ate paper and grass for a week and that highly-prized sanke looked strangely anaeroxic... that stupid kigoi's a fat ass bully. Did she tell you that Mr. Chang was pissed at her and Baby Chang for murking the pond up when they had a bet to see who can touch that super elusive and almost-invisible karasu (Rae won by the way, cheapo B's acting stupid about that 100bux. Dammit, it's not easy ok! Furthermore, with her super bat vision). But yeah, it was sure fun and hilarious.
Four-legged Changs are in good health, well, except Mr. Milo. Down with some shit skin problem (no thanks for being half Golden Retriever) and now is being prescribed with steroids. Mr. Aldo's seemed to be mellow and settled down. Not that spunk-ass rowdy anymore. He was so funnily annoying when he saw us getting Mr. Milo and Ms. Coco into the car. He had no idea that they're going to the place where his balls were sold off. He had no idea. While Ms. Coco's pretty much the same. Being the only girl in the family now, she's downright spoiled in every way.
So yeah, guess that pretty much about everything. Head spinning and tummy growling. Ok, children. Enough for today. Class adjourned.
p.s. - She had the worst cream puff ever today. Yuck.
posted by Rae @ 23:11
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Mileage
October 07 - 48.4km & 9 glasses of happy drink
November 07 - 56.3km & 8 glasses of happy drink
December 07 - 34.9km & lost count of happy drinks (but it's ok cos it's zoukOut)
January 08 - 8.6km & way way way too much happy drinks
February 08 - 5.1km & 4 glasses of happy drinks
Doggone dead. Gotta get back to the right track ASAP.
p.s. - Whatamegadouchecheatingbastard.
posted by Rae @ 17:45
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of Fighting Falcons, Nighthawks, Strike Eagles, Hornets, Tomcats & Sentries
Fighting Falcons? Nighthawks? Strike Eagles? Hornets? Tomcats? Sentries? What the heck are those, you might ask. And you might add, what the toot is wrong with Rae and the birds? Oh baby, you have no idea? Those are the names of military aircrafts respectively; F16-C, F117-C, F18, F14 and E3-A.
One of her wildest dreams is to pilot an aircraft. Y'see, she grew up with Gundam, Macross and GI Joe (along with Care Bears, My Little Ponies, Smurfs, Scooby Doo and Jem... wahahaha!). She's always been fascinated with mechs, aircrafts and battleships. Don't be surprised to know that one of her most treasured (and unfortunately trashed) birthday presents was a replica of USS Dwight D. Eisenhower. Though she might wanna add that she loved Barbies too (and she still has 2 with the head intact. You know how easy the head can fall off...). Yeah, she's kinda weird when she's young.
To sum up how mad she is about aircrafts, just give Rae a Fighting Falcon to conquer the clear blue sky even if it's only for 10 minutes and she'll gonna be yours forever and ever. XD. But honestly, when she finally becomes a tai-tai, one of the first things she's gonna splurge on is flying lessons and get that damn license.
Anyway... what she wanna say is that this weekend is the Singapore Airshow and she's busting for it. Singapore's Black Knights and Royal Aussie AF Roulettes are doing their thang hey. Enuff said. Can't wait.
posted by Rae @ 23:23
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Words & Tears
Very tough decision. One that she didn't wanna make... she has her reasons.
Not happy at all, but at least she's free again. And she's going to miss you so much because you've become such a big part of her life. Thank you for being in her life even though it's just for a little while. But who knows, you and her might meet up and rock NG together again in future. And who knows, it's gonna be more than that then.
For some unknown reason, she has a feeling it's not over yet. Haha! What the hell.
posted by Rae @ 01:43
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of Broken Hearts, Withered Roses & Godiva Chocolates
Exactly a year ago, Rae almost fucked up a friendship. Thank God, she managed to salvage it and they are still in good terms.Oh, Happy V's Day to you peeps far out there. Anyway, try ignore the pooper title. Doesn't really mean anything. Just for the heck of it (subliminal msg: she's single and dateless tonight ok! So go eff off! XD). No, really.
The store did pretty well tonight and peeps coming in with cheerful faces and bouquets of flowers and pressies and stuff. Seeing those chicks waiting for their purchase of ties and shirts and what-nots to be gift-wrapped made her smile. It made her feel grateful that there are still good things in life. They somewhat gave her hope. There are times she wonders and worries that she's turned jaded, cynical and lifeless. But there's always a voice in her telling her she hasn't meet the man who'd make her go head over heels. Yeah... some day, one day... let us just hope she's ready when he turns up and rock her planet!
(That sentimental and romantic cow's still in her after all) ^_^
posted by Rae @ 23:11
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Imagery of the Day
posted by Rae @ 19:04
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Back in Business
Oh she's back in town. Oh yeah your worst nightmare henceforth commences. Bwahahaha! Kid you not. Her wicked mind's done with a plan of world destruction. Give her a moment and she'll share with you. She's gotta run out and get her stupid tax return thingamajiq. And time to stock up her eggs, milk, greens, pastas, mushrooms, etc, etc, etc.
BRB
p.s. - when you see her, don't freaking utter a word about her mane. JUST. DON'T.
posted by Rae @ 16:56
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Oh Lord, Hark Her Hymn
Just one more day and she'll return to the reality which bites as hard as a rottie would on her sweet tight ass. Massive amount of workload beckons her. Her room full of rubbish and laundry waiting for her lovingly. Festive chub-a-chub-chub to be loved earnestly (ah shit... this is one tough job). *Sigh*
However one thing she looks forward to see the most; her friends. You guys know who you are. ;) She misses you guys heaps.
Especially G - Thanks for being there for me. Totally lost without you.
posted by Rae @ 22:05
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An Odd-Ass Thingamajiq Called Truth
Truth is rarely pure and never simple - Oscar Wilde
Can one be dishonest without telling any lies?
Yes, I think so.
Thanks to a fuggin acute intuition, someone's being dishonest with me. There's a possibility that you will not hear from me again. Do not underestimate me.
posted by Rae @ 23:51
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Chinese New Year: Imagery
posted by Rae @ 01:23
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Doing it the Wrong Way
Bed-ridden and sick. Very sick. :(
posted by Rae @ 13:49
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Revisualising Rae's DNA
She's changed quite a bit. Over time, her wishes, desires and wantings have changed. Her first visual profile's here.
posted by Rae @ 17:42
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Happiness. Great Health. Longevity. Prosperity.
All packed. She's just waiting for the time to fly by. Yesterday's one odd-ass day.Shoulders' sore as hell and feeling super feverish, Rae decided to pamper herself with a(n overpriced) mani and pedi and an half hour massage after spending a small fortune on dogs' stuff. The massage session was good, whole body went limb when the Chinese sinseh went for the lower back. That's the result of standing and walking too much. Because it's such an impromptu thing, she ended walking home BAREFOOT. She wasn't allowed to wear covered shoes after pedi and cabs were impossible to get. She was laughing and cursing and hoping no one noticed internally. Sux... all the exfoliation, scrubbing and massaging gone wasted.
Ruby red was the color of her choice for mani-pedi. They are not really done well to 
be honest but what the hell. Her nails are pretty dry and fuct up anyway.
Last night's dinner was amazing. It was a really pleasant surprise and well-thought. Was expecting non-Chinese meal but hey hey! We had Xi'an cuisine. Loved the mutton-on-skewers. Loved the 'big plate of chicken' (oh it's BIG alright!). Loved the handmade rice noodles. Heck, she loved them all. Thank you Ian & G! What happened after dindin was kinda like a deja-vu (in a good way). Ushered the lunar year with a bunch of Brits and a Kiwi. Did that last year. Clubs sucked (except Pump Room). Oh except there's something new this year! Was called a slut right in the face by some teenage girl. Yeap... that's because Rae danced way better than that puny skank. Yes, she was referring to Rae's dance cos Rae dances like one. Ah huh. Rae's just laughed it off. Ah well... karma's always sweeter. What the little skank didn't know was when she went to the loo, her boyfriend and one of her many skanky girfriends started kissing up a storm!
Enuff said. Exhausted physically and mentally. Feverish again. Stupid throat. Rae wishes you peeps out there a Happy Lunar New Year.
Bono made a lot things clear to her with 'Stuck in a Moment You Can't Get Out of it'.
posted by Rae @ 14:39
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Freeze the Real World and Tune Out
Hur hur hur. Chinese New Year. Hur hur hur. License to pig out. Hur hur hur. License to gamble. Hur hur hur. License to get drunk. Wahahaha!
Because she's unable to attend family's reunion dinner (missed 2 years in a row! Blueh~) due to her perpetual slothness, super angels Ian & G came to the rescue. Hur hur hur.
Heaps of things are still left undone. Laundry. Spring-cleaning. Packing. Sorting the bills. Aiya. Reckon gonna do all that tomaz.
Home. Where everything is and is less complicated. She will:
1. pamper the dogs like there's no tomorrow. Forsee long walks at the beach til the sun comes down
2. cook dinner for the family
3. bring Mrs. Chang to her old workplace for one-night-stay and shout her massages
4. be doing something she hates doing most - to the bank
5. renew her driving license
6. sign some shit papers concerning her car
7. catching-up-sum-pigging-out session with old friends
8. gambling time with Aunt Yong & Aunt Chen
9. collect angpows. Don't care she's already in her mid-twenties. Ain't married yet so she's still eligible V^_^V
10. check out that new steakhouse sis' talking about
and the list goes on and on and on...
tune of the day: I Know - Jay-Z
posted by Rae @ 13:21
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She's Not Meant to Go Yet
What happened here hey!? This space's pretty dead.
Rae's been swamped with workshitload for the past 2 weeks. It's all about work and on the piss. The latter was pretty shite cos she hasn't been running. All the calories.... die die die. And CNY's (read: pig-out time) just around the corner. She's homebound from 7th to 13th. Spent a small fortune on stuff for the family (hope they love them) and need to spend more for the Chang dogs. Thinking bow-ties for the 2 males and rock chick get-up for the girl. 'Lo & 'Do are gonna look handsome as hell while 'Co's gonna look hot. Throw in some gourmet snacks for them and it's good to go. The problem now is that she can't find the bow-ties and the get-up. Damn.
Putting that aside, the Big Guy up there was with her yesterday morning. She nonchalantly let the shower run while brushing her teeth and ten seconds later, the bloody heater just went short-circuit and there's some sparks and smoke and shit. Wow. Now the thing is that letting the shower run is never a routine. *Phew* She'd have been deep-fried like some grouper fish. Two things popped up on her mind; 'You have not forsaken me. Thank you Lord,' and 'I'm not meant to die yet. Phew,'. This is probably her first brush with death. Oh wait.... not really. She's electrocuted when she was about 9 (Mr. & Mrs. Chang still don't know about this! Well, not anymore maybe since she let it out in the open here...) and got hit by a car when she was 20.... hmm.... hohoho what a funky life she has.
She knows the Big Guy up there loves her but hey, sometimes she just needs some assurance if y'know what I mean. She's just a girl underneath that big-ass armor of an ego. Assurance. You hearin' her? Yeah, YOU. She's talking to you. Give her that frigging assurance.
This incident did make her realise a couple of things. But let's talk about this some other day. One thing she'd like to share though: don't postpone joy (Barney quote. Lame but it's true). Ah well... she knows clearly that she'll survive and everything's gonna be alright even if the world decides to turn against her. She'll find what she's looking for eventually.... and she's starting to talk some random shit so she's gonna stop now.
Tired as hell. Was on the piss (again) til dawn (for the past 2 consecutive nights). She oughta hit the treddy now.
Addendum: Jonesing for those ribs @ Carnivore. ^_^
posted by Rae @ 14:50
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No Matter?
Her heart's telling it's gonna be wrong.
But nothing is really wrong. Wait. Something feels wrong
Damn intuition.
posted by Rae @ 01:59
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A says: Chance to shoot you
