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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Open Note to Rachael L.


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Rae wrote @ 20:30

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Downright Stupid Ass

Do you know the feeling when you totally forget about saving the game cos you're so absorbed kicking those monsters' ass and then end up dying on boss battle...?
Indescribable, ya?
*Bangs head on the wall*

p.s. - And WTF is a pokute!?

Rae wrote @ 01:01

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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

To Keep Her Honest and Human


Alicia Keys is hot in here. REALLY REALLY H-O-T. Dig her cute 'do. And dig that cute song. Dig that cute mv too. Hmm... might wanna try that 'do. Hah.

Rae wrote @ 23:00

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Thursday, April 24, 2008

And Her Point Is...

What up?
So yeah. Of late, she's been thinking and shitting heaps. Shitting about the effects from the things she's done as well as the effects from the things done by peeps surround her. One of her two-oh-oh-eight resolutions' to quit judging others. A er... hmm... what's his status... ok, one said that's impossible as it's one of the most important survival skills one oughta be equipped with. Well she's kinda lazy and a bit tad intoxicated to elaborate about that 'quit judging others' then. And she kinda loathes explaining herself. She actually meant quit passing negative judgment on others. Anyway... so her point is... hmm... okay, she has a point and she's gonna go to that shortly. Remarks and comments about herself from others have been flying through her head making her wonder what sort of person she ACTUALLY IS and what sort of person she POTRAYS HERSELF TO BE. Or something like that.
However, the most bizarre remark was by this guy uncle she associated with last year: I feel and see a glimpse of devil in you. That came from a 45-year-old guy uncle whose longest relationship was hmm.... 5 years(?) plus he asked her if she'd like to spend the night with him the first time they met. And this guy uncle projected himself as quite a pious man; a red cloth/banner/thingamajiq across the top of the main entrance door a la Hebrew painting lamb's blood for the coming night of Passover (heh... Hebrews, Jews, she knows not about them still... re
minds her of a random conversation on the way back from Sentosa, which really pissed the hell outta her), potraits of Lord Jesus Christ and scriptures all over the residence (though he has this really funky and awesome aquarium). WTF! Who's the devil really, baby? Wahaha, funny. And the last time she talked to him was that he said he had issues to handle (aah.... the cliche. All too familiar, maybe?) and declined to talk about it (don't they now...), but she did somewhat find out eventually; a chick and a baby involved. Enough said. Devil, huh? So yeah, Rae admits she's got some devil in her, hey who doesn't? But this guy uncle is the Devil himself. Seriously, Rae thinks that no one is a good example of Christianity. No one is. And Rae's fine with it cos God didn't mean us to be perfect anyway. So when you come and tell her that the gf/bf/husband/wife's a good Christian, Rae's just gonna give you a plastic smile and a nod. Please. The definition of Christianity differ from one individual to another. One told me before he's had a few good Christian girlfriends. Really? Thought the Bible discourages sex before marriage. Oops.... guess that one's kinda dissipated into thin air between kissing and foreplay... *shrug* but then of course that's none of Rae's ding-dong business. So yeah... she will admit she's not a fine example of Christianity. She was a Christian and still is for Lord Jesus Christ died for her sins. And she too, like the rest of the world, is selective on what's ok and what's not.
But one thing that made Rae think twice about severing contact with him back then was that he was one of very few peeps she feels very comfortable with. Comfortable meaning she can just talk and talk and yak and yak about random crap with him easily despite that time being the first time they met. Usually, she's stoic and has nothing to say when meeting new peeps (which is why the word ARROGANT is in her Johari window. Aiya, if you and her don't click, then you and her just don't click. What's the point calling her arrogant anyway... she doesn't think that way of you. Though she will admit that she sometimes feels superior than the rest of the world). And he kinda babied her too. Plus he being someone who flies Boeings for a living plays a big part, she's not gonna lie. Hur hur hur. But the head and the heart told to stay the F away from him and so she did.
Hey wait a sec, she forgets what her point is...


Wahahaha. Damn lame-o. Why the hell is she writing such a far out entry... hmm... guess cos she's feeling bitchy, pissy and shit for she didn't tell 'Uncle, you are the freakin' Devil himself' to his face when she oughta to cos she didn't have the bollocks to do it then. She'd love to give him a buzz and tell him that now but she's erased his number... Name-calling isn't her thing anyway, not!
Lame Joke of the Day: American women didn't believe in Bush, they believed in Brazilian. Hur hur hur. Lame she knows.

Rae wrote @ 22:55

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Wednesday, April 23, 2008

And The Pursuit of the Perfect Hibiscus Ends

Traveled across six (or is it 7?) continents of the world, climbed the highest mountain, swam the deepest ocean, searched high and low for that perfect white bloom. She found it, finally. On good ol' trusty eBay all the way from the island of hula and luaus. In a couple of weeks, she'll rock it with that gorgeous TRF white-light blue maxi dress when Espanol principals hit Singapore. You would be thinking "what in the world is this chibi Rae trying to prove by wearing a maxi dress?" Now now, vertically-challenged peeps like Rae CAN wear maxi dress and look gorgeous in it. She had a trial run on it last Sunday. The store sold them out within that day. Talk about trendsetter, baby. *flashes V sign*
One of the keys is the print. Look for smaller and less complicated prints. Steer clear from ankle-length and instead, go for floor-sweeping length like the way Angie Jolie rocked it. And wear wedges! Yeah, the web recommends gladiator sandals but hey, heels gives you that extra height. Rae the Vain does it with a 4 1/2-inch-kill-me-feet-now-wedges. Hmm, actually that pair of wedges is super comfy albeit the look.
Lesson of the Day: Never ever paint nails on the bed. My Egyptian cotton!!!! *bangs head against the wall*

Term of the Day: Conunut (all because of a coconut tart).
Tune of the Day: Oddly-titled teensy tune Tattoo by Jordin Sparks.
Creature of the Day: White tiger.
Miss-Doing-This of the Day: Riding on a bicycle.
Imagery of the Day:

Rae the mama-san and her bitches

Rae wrote @ 14:18

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Monday, April 21, 2008

Road to Wembley

Technically, it's not to Wembley but to South Africa cos that is where 2010 World Cup's gonna be at. Road to Wembley is the FA Cup anyway. Truth be told, Rae digs Les Bleus. Yessirrie, she cheers and cries for France. But since Rae's a hardcore Nike worshipper and Nike doesn't do France, Rae settles for the Brits instead. Plus England's the 2nd seed in her bracket and red is Rae's favorite color so it's a good thing.
Now that Zidane's kept his booties away in 2006, Rae's banking on Henry to bring glory back to France, hopefully like the way Zidane did at '98 finals. But please do not, she repeats, DO NOT utter a word about 2006 Finals. Just. Freakin. Don't.
That thing never happened. Never.
Man, she missed her WC and FA days...
Talking about FA, Rae didn't really fancy The Blues but who could forget this:
Chelsea! Chelsea! We're gonna make this a blue day~
Chelsea! Chelsea! We're gonna make this a blue day~
Oi!
Lalalalala!
Lalalalala!
Lalalalala!
And of course, her favorite FA team... she used to promise You'll Never Walk Alone. But things got complicated and she left Liverpool. XD (lame joke. lame joke) While her favorite player has gotta be that super duper hot Italiano Pippo Inzaghi (and maybe, Kaka). *swoon*

Random Flotsam of The Day: You should create your own website, post your picture up, do some blogging about your beliefs, and generally trumpet yourself and your innermost thoughts there via Internet.

Yeah, well Rae's been doing that for hmm.... four years already anyway. Nyeh.

::edit::
The color red on the collar bloody ran, hey. That's a bloody official merchandise and that bloody shit ran cos it's soaked with sweat after her running session! She was freaking proud bearing 'England' on her chest, man! Damn it.
side note: Wahahaha, not that she is a traitor-bitch but when France/England/Brazil's playing on the field, Rae's a French/Brit/Brazilian. Sorry, Malaysia. Your football team... you know how it is.

Rae wrote @ 20:05

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Friday, April 18, 2008

Seeing Less of Already Much-Lessen of Her

According to the staff, she was Wacko Jacko, Madonna, Britney, Alicia, J.Lo & Avril today. All because of a friggin' fedora.
Hah.

On a not-so-lighter note, she's been... hmm... how would she say? The entry title is pretty self-explanatory. Little did she realise that she's spending more and more time at work until yesterday when she was calculating her clocking hours. Work's become her reason. Other departments of her life... they are somewhat less interesting so let's talk about it some other day. Talking about priorities... a random and funny thing about priorities and her popped up... let's talk about it some other time too. The more she thinks about it the more weird things pop out so she's gonna switch the thinking tank off for now. Tomorrow's another big day at work anyway.
Cheerio.
Addendum: the photoblog's kinda resurrected. Enough said. ;)
Rocking on No Doubt's Underneath it All.

Rae wrote @ 01:20

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Friday, April 11, 2008

That Scintilla of Nullity

The Land of Rising Sin. A name Rach's given to this odd-ass small island of a country. Yeah, we both agreed all sins start from here and witnessed some escalated to the point of no return. But that's a different story to be told some other time.
The plan was ended earlier than she'd thought it'd be. A time for herself and her confused mind, reflecting and contemplating what to do next. It was a moment when she, as Rae, disappeared from the surface of the earth. Instead of fighting against the world, she's gonna let things run its course. She could tell you so much more but this time, it's just gonna be between her and God. Maybe, hopefully she'll share with you peeps out there when she's ready. ;) And fret not, that's gonna be soon.
In between, she finished a book she picked up haphazardly from a friend's store. It was one of the most powerful books she's ever read, Shan Sa's The Girl Who Played Go. Amazing. Amazing. Allow her to share some words that smacked her in the head:

"A real man is different, not like the boys with their moustaches who lurk outside our school. He can guess what you're thinking, anticipate what will make you happy. When you're with a man, you're no longer a girl but a goddess, a sage, an ancient soul who has lived in every era, a wonder that he contemplates with all the intense curiosity of a new-born baby."

And here is one that swept her away, literally:

"For your sake I'm going to turn my back on this war and betray my own country. For your sake I will be unworthy of my own parents, I will sully my ancestors' honour. My name will never be inscribed in the Temple of Heroes. It will be cursed instead."

With that, Rae fell in love with the male protagonist. The world needs more of those men nowadays. Would Rae meet someone who would go all the way for her and with her? Someone who would give a full shot instead of someone who's a half-arsed shit and impregnated with heaps of deceptions and twisted secrets? Hmm... hopefully la ha... Keepin' fingers crossed. No harm having a wishful thinking.

The Girl Who Played Go was set in Japanese-occupied Manchuria in 30's and it is a haunting tragedy of love and war reflected in the age-old game of Go. Few war stories had happy endings and this book is not privileged to be one of them. But the ending maintains the sober beauty of the novel, and the grimness feels earned rather than forced. This isn't a book for airport reading but it is one of the few stories fit and able to find a place in an attentive heart.

Shakira + Santana's taking over her iTunes with Illegal. A song that everyone can relate.


Rae wrote @ 12:16

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

F*ck You and the Rest of the World

Tomorrow, or today to be more precise, is the first day of the said plan. Is somewhat dreading and looking forward to it at the same time as it marks the ending of the ride. No one can change feelings. Only thinking can be changed. It's a pretty exciting plan as this is the first time she's doing it and it's a pretty big thing to do.
However, she does hope that everything's gonna be ok again when she completes it. She hopes she gets to where she wants to go. She hopes she gets what she desires. She hopes to feel what she wants to feel.

Wahahaha... does this make you go curious and shit about this plan!? ;)
Tune in for more. Or not.
Enuff said.

Rae wrote @ 01:41

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Sunday, April 06, 2008

Daze it. Faze it. Haze it. Blaze it.

Ah-huh.
Soon, this blog's gonna be hmm... let's just say, wait for it and see what happens, yeah? Anyway, which is the way? Listen to the head or listen to the heart? Mind's telling you what seems right and what seems wrong while heart wants to ensure you get what you want. So which one? Guess this time Rae will do what her heart says when the time comes.
With her shit somewhat straightened up (or rather, cleaned up?), she's cooked up a 'Fuck You and the Rest of the World' plan this week and she's freaking busting for it. Yes.
Though she gotta point out that some peeps are just super weird. Super super weird. Their actions and the way they think are so so so weird. And petty. And pathetic. Isn't that right, Super DoDo? That Wet Trout Chick. Rae's in a suppressed bitching mode now, hey. How can Rae blog it so that Wet Trout won't feel... 'perasan'? So how, DoDo? Rae so wanna bitch about her here! *Sigh* Well, guess it's just gonna be Rae & co.'s private joke. Seriously, Rae still doesn't think it's Wet Trout's fault or anything. But Rae's busting to be 'FEMALE' and bitch about her. Cos it's always fun to bitch about someone. LOL.
Work. Believe it or not, Rae's committed to take a friggin' visual merchandising and display test paper in two weeks' time. So these couple of weeks (except those 3 days of 'Fuck You and the Rest of the World' plan), she's gonna mug like one would for the final exam. Brain all clogged up with shit and stuff now, hey. Caja UC Duble. Mural Barra Pared. Mural Barra Techo. Colgador Curva Alta. Mural Excentrica Bolsos y Complementos. Mesa Wengue. Mesa Parsol. Grupo Madera. Mural Tubada. Y toda la mierda en Espanol. (Did I get it right on that last one, Ian?) Rae now has a new pain in the butt at work. Everyday she'll stress up with what to deck up. Was friggin' looking forward to it but seriously... IT'S A PAIN IN THE BUTT. A REAL pain in the butt. 4-inch-heels everyday ain't a funny thing. But then again...

On a lighter note, last night was the heaviest on-the-piss session for the past months. Heh. The Birthday Boy was totally smashed up after heaps of rounds, a shooter, a flaming and a graveyard and whatever that came along afterward. Hur hur hur. Stupid St. J charged her so high much for that flaming! HUH!

Somehow this picture didn't show how boinked up he was. Nyeh.

So yeah.
Buck it. Schmuck it. Chuck it. Puck it. Suck it. Best of all, fuck it.
Heh. Know not what's up with her and that rhyme thingamajiq so Rae's gonna adjourn. And Rae hopes you guys have a good kronk out.
So there. For now. Maybe for ever. Or not. Whatever.
Lastly, a quote/saying/enlightenment a friend shared on her blog:
I'm not the woman you love because you won't let me wait for a second.

I'm not the woman you love because you tell me all your secrets.
I'm not the woman you love but the mate to share your burden.


Addendum: No, she didn't BUI (blog under influence).
Whitney Houston speaks to Rae through My Love is Your Love.

Rae wrote @ 20:23

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Saturday, April 05, 2008

Still Stuck

Why?
Damn.
*Sigh*

Rae wrote @ 09:59

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Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Lagan and Flotsam

-She was MIA for 2 weeks *Suman suman!*. Well, things got pretty complicated yeah. She doesn't like when she's emo and stuff. Makes her so vulnerable and useless, feelings that she loathes the most. Friends are generally very supportive and awesome. A good friend said go with the flow and follow what the heart says. Rae's still confused about this shit. Just like you, she's gonna need time to figure things out. Meanwhile please be patient with her. She'll reach out when she's ready. :-) And she does miss you.
- Ok. Mileage for the month of March; 41.5km. She could have done better but hey, she finally pulled a 10km in 83 minutes after so many months. Not fantastic but it is a good start. Mileage target for April: 55km. *Ganbatte yo!*
- Her operation kiss boss' ass is a success. This month is another new level. All the shit she's gone through has finally paid off. Though she gotta admit it's kinda a pain in the bollocks.
-Pretty much rot at home watching more animes during her free time. Chang Jr. introduced Bamboo Blade just the other day and Rae got hooked on it. It's a kendo anime. Oh you have no idea how much Rae loved kendo. And she's currently ooh-ing and aah-ing on Eyeshield 21 too. Hiruma rocks her world with his devillish soul.
- Had a satisfying bitching session with a friend over MSN. This friend in question is a Tai-tai-in-training at far out place dodgy-ly called Pontianak. Can't wait for you to come back. And can't wait to fly to your hometown this end of year.
-Tonight was a great business-cum-chill-out-night. Rae gave 2 thumbs up for The Legends @ Fort Canning. Loved The Billiard Bar. Great ambiance, awesome chill out music, impeccable service, delectable food, etc etc. Plus the company was awesome. Rae did pretty well on pool this time around having to win 3 out of 5 games (one was win by default though). Man, she forgot how much she enjoyed 'poking balls'. She's earned herself a spot at the boys' club. *Curtsy* Yes, she's one of the boys now.

On a lighter note, she wants this very very very badly: If only her schedule isn't that random. *Sigh*
Funny thing today. Blog visitors of the day during noon: Nat West (Klatchy? Welcome back!), BarCap (Hey girl!), Macquarie (Heh.... got a feeling who... dodgy), Citibank (who?). Why all banks...?

Rae wrote @ 22:55

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