Me, Myself and I All Over Again.
So the day she turned 27 is the day she discovered how cruel life can be. She thought everything's gonna be okay when she met him but as usual God loves to play a game or two with her. It was devastating but it has to be done. Thought her wish for having someone to call her own came true. Thought things changed when she met him. She learned to give again. She had a taste of being not lonely for a while. But it's over now. Just like that. Why life has to be so cruel at times?
Rae wrote @ 04:09
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My Destiny
It's so easy to say stop thinking so much. I wish I could do it too, just stop thinking but it keeps haunting me. All I wanted was just that. I meant nothing else. I'm so sad. Life ain't that easy for me I guess.
Rae wrote @ 21:52
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Back On Just For A Little While
What up, people!?
It's been a while, yeah!? Did you guys miss me???? Heh. Missed you guys heaps. Excited to find out that I could get free wireless at my workplace. Life's been weird without www. Otherwise, things are good. Already settled down nicely at my place and stuff. Good place.
So yeap, gotta back to work despite it's my day off today. Been fighting against massive workload and datelines. It's been a busy month and it's gonna be busier soon so cheerio!
p.s. - DJ Aldrin was awesome last night. Missed him.
::EDIT::
Party people!!! Take note of the stuff below:
DATE: July 2nd, 2008
VENUE: MoS or Zouk
TIME: When God Sleeps
OCCASSION: Ms. Chang's 27th Birthday
Rae wrote @ 15:49
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God Will Cease to Exist Any Minute Now
I'm pissed. Really fuckin pissed. The movers were supposed to be here by 1900 hours but I'm still waiting for them right now at 2123 hours. On top of that, someone's being oblivious of me moving today. Fuckin asshole.
I'm really fuckin pissed you don't really wanna breathe the same air I'm breathing.
Rae wrote @ 21:22
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Standing Ovation
Somehow, moving out this time brings out all sort of memories and when this happens it only reveals two things. The feeling of loss.
Among the people that came and went in my life, there's a really small handful of them that left a massive imprint on me. Funnily, while all of them left in voluntary but there's only one that I walked away from. And it is this one that gave me the most effect. I guess that's probably things haven't get burned between us.
*Slaps self*
I gotta stop being an emo cow and gotta get out from this shithole.
Rae wrote @ 12:56
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Getting Ready to Take Off
I didn't know I overworked until today. I labeled all the cartons in Spanish. Last check was one carton of zapatos, two cartons of camisas and one carton of blasiers, vestidos + complementos. Is that a good sign? I doubt so.
Moving day is tomorrow. It seems like my boss was right about giving me a couple of extra days off. I'm not really finished packing yet and I give up being independent and cheapo this time around. I've hired movers and stuff.
Anyway... gonna be disconnected from the www for only-god-knows-how-long cos I needa set up my own this time. The thought of being disconnected is rather horrifying.
*Sigh*
Gonna join the suburban club soon. Definitely gonna miss being 2 minutes away from Clarke Quay and town area. Truth be told, happy trips to Clarke Quay have been reduced at least half since I've moved so really, there's no point of me staying downtown. Plus I feel I'm getting lazier and careless about spending the moolah staying here.
My new humble abode looks really pleasant and homey being a new development and all. Plus it's convenient; there are all kinds of shops around and the mrt station is just... a minute-walk? Yippie!
Oh boy, what a boring entry. So here's the latest picture of Ms. Coco C.
Enough said. Sneezing like mad from the dust and what-nots... you guys have an awesome weekend!
Take a Bow rekindled my love for Rihanna.
Rae wrote @ 20:24
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Ain't Holding it
This entry is a negative one. Click that small X on top right of your window if you are feeling equally shitty for the world doesn't need another shit-feeling person.
Looking at the rate I'm going, I might have to give up drinking man... I've only managed to clock less than 25kms last month. Argh! Stressed. With late night supper becoming frequent, I reckon I gotta run more now. *Sigh*
Anyway on a less interesting note, I've been wondering and kind of confused about weird ass things called relationship and trust. I know not how to put it in words and I don't particularly like how I'm feeling right now. My intuition's rather disturbing. Maybe I think too much. Maybe that's not the case. Maybe I'm right about it. I know not how to convey this to him without screwing things up like I always did. Seriously. And there's this health thing of his that's bothering me. I just don't know how to tell him to look into his current lifestyle and all. *Sigh*
Another thing's that giving me bad vibes is that place that I'm going to move in to. Damn... could not sleep thinking about it last night. I just don't feel safe about it. *Sigh*
This month's progressively crazy at work that my leave application on my birthday's rejected. Nyeh. Forget about mad ass party and shit and all. Best thing is probably celebrate it after. *Major sigh*
So there... things that are bothering the shit outta me. Hope you guys have a better one than me. Really.
Power Tune of the Day: Mark Ronson's Ooh Wee.
Rae wrote @ 21:56
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So the Devil Wears Zara
What up, people?
So Rae's found a new place to stay today and it's cheaper that Mrs. Chang ain't gonna nag at her again. Yay. No dog to play with though...
Friday night saw her doing that GMax Swing thingamajiq over at Clarke Quay with Ian and G. The first few seconds were so gratifying that she couldn't even scream. There's a picture to remember it by... Definitely gonna try that reverse bungee.
Anyway, she's nursing the most major hangover to date today. No thanks to magic drinks by the roadside prior MoS and some black shitty drink they bought her. She didn't really remember some parts of the evening but thank god he was there to make sure she's ok. He claimed she talked a lot of shit last night. Chucking up session started around afternoon today though.
Those ain't mashed potatoes she's holding. Ho ho ho ho.
Rae wrote @ 00:06
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The Moonchild Found Her Weapon of Destruction
Finally, after years of searching for those perfect fire-engine red come-fuck-me heels, she found them. And the best thing is that she got them with 50% discount. He said they remind him of the Devil. Heh. Perfecto. :)On another note, she's been wanting to update all her tunes with cd cover but the thought of doing it made her cringe. If only there's a good samaritan out there who would help her... *sigh*
House/room-hunting has been a pain in the arse. There's a place far out at Serangoon that's really appealing to her. Condo room with attached bathroom and the necessities like queenbed, air-con and internet plus swimming pool, jacuzzi and maid service. Oh what's best is that there's a Maltese to play with too. Tempted but the $$ is the same as what she's forking out for the current place. How...
Groovin' with Mutya Buena's B Boy Baby.
Rae wrote @ 16:56
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One Funky Milestone
I made a patron cry.
And the worst part is that I didn't feel bad about it; not even a scintilla of guilt. And I still don't feel guilty.
Yes. Wow. I amaze myself at times.
But then again, I'm a chick not a guy. How would another girl's tears gonna affect me hey? What was she thinking seriously?!
Man, what a wuss.
Rae wrote @ 01:21
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