Sunday, July 12, 2009
Dessert or Disaster
Keri Hilson's Knock You Down is a tad too 'fly' in usage of words but they took the words outta my mouth.
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I somewhat mentioned that what was going on. Yes, I finally had the closure though it didn't feel like one. But things were moving so fast and people were always surrounding me that I didn't have the time to think or reflect of the closure except just feeling somewhat glad/sad it was done. I finally did today. I stopped for a while and cried. No doubt, it hurts so much. He was right. Talk/closure like this isn't enough. It takes time and will power. Only he knows how he truly feels. Only I know how I truly feel. He asked what was real and what wasn't. I didn't really know how to answer back then. But he were half-right, I won't know what's real.
But I still think otherwise and this is my side of the story.
You just know it when things are real. It isn't something that humans can understand or answer. You just let the real be real. The more questions asked, the further answers are gonna be away from you. Who knows we might only know the 'real' on our judgment day.
Now the 'matter' and my mental health is the keypoint. It came to me that things have been left lingered too long that God probably made us reconnect again to decide. It must be something because the first person I thought of when shit unfolded was him. It's either we break or we make it. As far as I know, we chose to break it. So, the decisions are always at our hands. Nothing is real unless we make it real. So he was half-wrong, I know what's real.
Time to say goodbye is getting near so it's gonna be another wasted love story of a broken hearted. But never a matter, one day that guy will come to me. He could be someone from the past and he could be someone totally new but he'll be that guy who thinks the sun rises and sets with me. Heck, he'll be the guy who thinks the sun shines out my ass. That guy who will just shut up and just love me. I'm just gonna wait for him to find his way to me while I sort my other aspects of life out, so until then.
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Labels: The Art of Love and Relationship
Rae wrote @ 00:56
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