When The Reality's Out In The Open
Thought it was just a regular dumping ground but I was proved wrong and was brutally disturbed. Click here to find out what it is. I've never felt so sick.
Goosebumps hit me in waves while watching the clips on YouTube. But I wonder what'd be the outcome. I didn't hear anything about those poor horses in Melinsung Sabah anymore. I hope the government doesn't turn a deaf ear this time.
I wonder what the hell is wrong with humans these days. I remember reading an article about 2 dvd-sniffing dogs successfully busted a multi-million pirate cd scandal in THE COUNTRY and their heads were put on a $30k bounty respectively. One of the two Labs donated to Malaysia by Motion Picture Association has died mysteriously. The Labrador named Manny looked so much like Sasha Fierce. It's a no-brainer for fellow Malaysians on how those people run 'protect' the country. Hint: Traffic police. Those motherfuckers running the country. I'm praying hard for Paddy, the other Lab's safety and well-being. A statement was issued and here's an excerpt:
"He had not started work yet so I doubt that there was anyone who wanted to harm him,"
Fuck. Ever heard of risk management and prevention?
Rae wrote @ 02:31
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Always Be My Baby
Was poring through the photos of my four three dogs and boy how I miss them so much, especially Sasha Fierce. She means a hell lot to me. I mean, I love the other 3 ones too but for Sasha, it's very different. Though Mr. Milo is my dog (Mr. Aldo was my sis but he switched team and became my dad's while Ms. Coco's technically mom's as we bought Coco for her birthday), raising them's a family business. For Sasha, I was the sole care-taker. Plus, Sasha's more responsive and perhaps, a bit tad clingy. I guess I was the world to her back then. *Sigh* Below pictures are of chronological order.
Dated 12/12/08; the day after I brought her home. As you can see, her eyes were swollen and were kinda bald here and there. And she were still scratching herself like mad. The first bill at the vet's kinda 'wow, that's not cheap'. The vet claimed her recovery was too slow and I was on the right track giving her omega supplements. She was very thin as well, had to make an additional hole on her collar to fit.
Decided to post a less horrendous version of her photo in b&w for her introductory entry so not to turn readers off.
Dated 15/12/08; one of our twice-daily walks. Her stamina was low for a Lab. Must be lack of exercise back then. However, she's very responsive when she's offleash. Just a call, she'll be running back to you with that typical happy bubbly burst. My other 3 stooges weren't like that. The more you call, the further away they are from you. Maybe except for Coco.
Dated 16/12/09, she didn't find my christmas tree particularly interesting which was quite a relief for me. I was worried she might wreck it but she didn't even bother give it a sniff. That's the nearest I could do to make her pose with it. She mastered 'sit' command three days after I got her. Brilliant dog. If I had the resources, I'd send her for classes and all and she'd make a great rescue or agility or therapy dog.
Dated 20/12/08; a couple of days later she's in heat which puzzled the shit outta me as the previous owner claimed her last heat was in September. Heat is usually 6 months apart. Nevertheless it's not Sasha's fault but it did catch me offguard as it happened at late night. Improvised with my Topshop Wonder Woman briefs, lined with a pantyliner (which she's wearing in the picture). She's admiring herself there. ^_^ And she found it interesting (maybe she thought it's another dog), she went to the mirror and start sniffing and cocking her head right to left while wagging her tail. As you can see from the picture, her shoulder's toned up from our daily walks. Her fur's growing back albeit sloooow.
Dated 26/12/08, I came back from work exhausted to find a huge mess done by her in my room. Frank the camera was part of the mess. She chewed my closet drawer and the leg of my pinewood bedframe. Was pissed off at her and punished her. She gave me that look. *Heart melt*
Dated 28/12/08, another night when I came home to see another mess. Check out the corners of my closet. It's her work. She stuck her big butt there as a self-imposed punishment. It takes a lot to stay angry with her.
Dated 10/01/09, she was checking out the noise below. Her butt's getting bigger due to twice-daily diet. Need to switch to one meal per day now. Also it's used to be her sleeping spot. She upgraded herself to my bed a few nights later. Look below.
Dated 18/01/09, she's pooped after coming back from a run. Noticed that her fur's growing progressively faster. Yay. Her stamina's up and she's definitely stronger. Had to loosen her collar for a better fit. And she's a bit rebellious now at this time. Can't really blame her due to the amount of time I spend with her. She pulled hard on lead and broke her leash. Dang. Contemplated to use choke-chain on her but decided not to until I learn how to use it PROPERLY.
It was also the time that I know what I want from love relationship and I called it off. What I forsaw with him was a dealbreaker. It's definitely a no-go and I didn't want both of us wasting time and energy on things that won't work out in the end plus I have no intention to change him for me. We wanted different things and are just not for each other. He didn't understand. It wasn't really difficult as I thought everything's gonna be alright as long as I have Sasha with me and I won't be lonely.
Few days later, shit happened when my landlord got pissed of her and gave me the ultimatum. Don't know what happened while I was at work but I had an inkling. I had no time to think but did what's best back then. Posted an adoption up on 21/01/09 and interviewed a few. Some were insisting not to have her neutralised but I refused. I refused to take any chance should these people make a puppy-churning machine outta Sasha. Neutralising dogs isn't a bad thing. One of the pros is that their problematic skin would improve. Also of course, no 'bleeding' if you know what I mean. Then a kind soul called. Somehow I knew this was it. Met her and the family up and they seemed to be a good family. Sasha seemed to adore them as well. Actually, Sasha adores everyone. She's a bubbly fool who thinks the whole world is there to love her.
Dated 01/02/09, before she leaving for the new family which I posted not long ago. It was one of the most difficult times and it's probably the biggest regret that I'll carry to my grave. And let me tell you, I don't have many regrets. Waterworks worked way overtime my eyes hurt so much. I really felt like dying as there's no outlet for me to release what's inside. Stayed away from everything about dogs for a while.
Putting that aside, she's become very beautiful so the omega supplements worked wonderfully. Gained approximately 4kgs too. The last time I saw her, which was two weeks ago, she had double chin. ^_^ New mum's switching her meals to one per day to control her diet. I used to feed her twice as she needed that at that time. New mum also wanted to try EPO and asked for my permission which I felt kinda embarrased... I'm no longer her care-taker' but I guess she's just kinda showing respect. Sasha's very lucky to have met this family. New mum's soft-spoken and I feel is one of the most patient people. She's such a sweet person. As for the new dad, he's the typical alpha so Sasha'll have a disciplinarian with her. Sasha needs these sort of people to be around her.
I'm welcomed whenever I feel like visiting her. She might have her surname changed but she's still my baby and she'll always have a special place in my heart. As of now, I still feel useless and shit for not able to provide the life she deserved.
Am looking forward seeing her this Thursday.
Rae wrote @ 01:17
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Spot & Blog
An elderly couple walking while holding hands. Amazing that something so simple like that is able to make me smile. A good start of the day :-)
Hopefuly I have someone to hold me hand when I'm old.
Labels: The Art of Love and Relationship
Rae wrote @ 11:32
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Heap of Junk & All
Things I finally did:
1. Changed my photoblog's address. Took me a year to change it from blogspot to my own domain. That's because I didn't know how and didn't bother to find out how.
2. Created an 'About' page on another third level.
3. Took dumb and unnecessary posts off the blog in effort to make this world a better place for you and for me.
4. Dusted up my mp3s. Scarlet's overloaded that either I re-organise my music (e.g. delete songs) or buy a new iPod. I chose the former. Cheaper that way. :)
Things that I *WILL* do:
1. Change that haphazard photoblog skin.
2. Download new songs.
3. Open a new bank account.
4. Pay utility bills.
On a lighter note, last Friday saw me rocked the club like there's no tomorrow with Rachael and sis who were on transit. I will admit my body takes one for the team. Aching all over man and we couldn't last the whole night like back then. Attica spun real old skool music which brought back many memorable events. Rach and I couldn't help reminiscing the past. Good old past when there were no bad blood and commitments and secrets kept in tact. Oh well, life goes on. However, this also marked the end of my ahem, teetotalism. Ben & Jer's Dublin Mudslide doesn't count.
I'm gonna hit the sack now. Massive headache because of the dumb the whole domain thingamajiq.
Rae wrote @ 03:01
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Part-Time Job: Tourguide
Caution: Heavy load of pictures!
This post is way overdue.
Rae wrote @ 00:04
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My Prerogative, My Destiny, My Curse
I love my job but there's just this one thing that I hate about it. It moulds me to a dream wrecker. It's my curse. I think I'm being cursed into eternal damnation by them on this 'joyous' day for wrecking their plans.
Sigh.
Rae wrote @ 14:29
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My Homeground Needs Your Help
WWF's reaching out for your help to protect wildlife in Malaysia. Click HERE.
Rae wrote @ 23:29
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My Downfall
Someone with wisdom warned me before. My tongue could be my downfall.
There are too many times I wished those words didn't roll out from my mouth.
There are too many times I wished I could think first before saying anything.
There are too many times I wished I was not me.
Looking back this is about the time of year that everything'd just turn shitty.
I have to change before I self-destruct.
p.s. Jordan Knight & Deborah 'Debbie' Gibson's Say Goodbye's been haunting me. Loneliness and that song is a very very bad combo. It makes you go even more stupid.
Rae wrote @ 00:48
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The Calm After The Storm
So Sasha's settled down with her family and she has a yard to play in and a pool to swim in. I miss her very much but this is definitely better for her. It's so weird now. Back then, I'd rush home from work to see her and would get pretty busy right after. Now, man... I found myself nothing to do. Like right now. Past few nights, I occupied myself with Keroro Gunsou but got bored with it. Tried Naruto and it didn't work too.
SIGH.
Truth be told, I fell in love with her. I really did. She's very different with my other dogs. She's more expressive and easier to train. She knows when she does something bad and she'd hide under the bed. She really knows how to melt my heart. I love how she responds when I call to her. I love how her tail wags crazily like chopper rotor when she runs to me. I love how she looks when she's focused. I love when she sits quietly and attentively waiting for my command permission to chase after those birds during her walks. I love how generous she is with her kisses. I love when the tip of her tongue stuck out when she's asleep. I love the way she burps after meal. That cracks me all the time.
I miss her so much. And I'm gonna visit her tomorrow. Yay!
My girl, while waiting for her new family to pick her up.
Rae wrote @ 23:47
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Mighty Full of Ourselves Sometimes Aren't We
Kinda irrevelant but I like how that rolls out.
I will admit right here that things have been kinda shitty for me of late. Little did you know, maybe.
1. Broke up.
2. Was forced to give up Sasha Fierce few days later.
So yeap. It was the latter that kicked my ass the hardest. He asked me if I was okay. I managed to choke up a mean and strong 'yeah I'm okay'. But, do you know how it feels when someone asks you if you are okay when you are obviously not but you have no other choice but to say you are because of your big ass ego and you wanna put a damn brave face? Damn fucken of course I'm not okay. Fucken hell. I'M NOT FUCKEN OK SO DON'T FUCKEN ASK ME THAT FUCKEN QUESTION ANYMORE.
Ah there.... finally outta my chest after holding up so long.
Don't worry, I'll be okay. Soon. It's always been me, myself and I.
God loves me in a totally different and twisted way. That's all.
You guys have a great weekend ahead. I'll try to, too.
Rae wrote @ 00:40
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Holy Grail of Bags
I love her in The Memoir of Geisha but I very much dislike to find out that this bitch woman has two of MY Birkins. *Fumes*
One day. One day I'll get them back.
A Birkin in white with bleu jean piping or in raisin with black handle would make me very happy too.
Rae wrote @ 00:58
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Unfold
It's been a nerve-wrecking, food-bingeing week.
Issues gradually solved (amen!) and flab gradually makes a comeback.
Never mind about that.
Everyone's back home is fine. No pictures as Sasha Fierce wrecked my camera not long ago. The Chang clan spent the new year eating and eating and eating and eating, like everyone else. I have to point out that Mr. Milo's skin has improved tremendously, thanks to the new vet.
Now that my moo year leave's going to be over in another 4 days (and yes, I'm back in Singapura), I've been pillaging the net for Verano 2009 trends. Not really. I'm more like plundering the shoes trend and boy, I'm loving it. Refer to the previous post. Actually those are past seasons but they are the foundations of what's going to be big this coming season. Maybe except for AD boots. Forget about heel heights and toe shapes, it's about details, baby. But that's not my point. I realised I'm a shoe chick. Really. I have... wait lemme go count, 4 pairs of boots, 22 pairs of heels, 5 pairs of flats and 2 pairs of running shoes. And Christian Louboutin Pigalle in nude might be joining the club soon as I might be able to enjoy an insider's discount (I could hear the angels sing). Louboutin's just opened its door in Takashimaya very recently *Huge grin* Just so you know, CL Pigalle in nude has become one of the all-time must-have shoes.
Putting that aside, a gulp of fresh milk just purchased from the local mart honored me a couple of trips to the loo. I think I'm becoming lactose-intolerant. Damn.
Question of the Day: What's the best way to cook Japanese sea bass a.k.a suzuki?
::EDIT:: Fried the sea bass in tumeric. Oh-so-yum.
Rae wrote @ 19:31
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Thought it was just a regular dumping ground but I was proved wrong and was brutally disturbed. Click here to find out what it is. I've never felt so sick.
