Everyone's Fucked Up in Their Own Very Way
Weird things have happened in my life very recently and I seriously don't even know where to start but I swear it's gonna change my life forever. It all falls on how I see life is.
So, I'm gonna be dead on cyberspace for a little while.
Rae wrote @ 02:32
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Naughty and Nice
I've been quite naughty...
Cos I've just got myself something nice...
In a little robin's egg blue box.
:D
p.s. I'm back in SG btw.
Rae wrote @ 19:34
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Dead-O
After two weeks of doing 4 persons' workload at work, this weekend should be a great break for me. But the first thing that I got after waking up was a sprained ankle. Sigh. Otherwise I'm good.
Logged onto my Virtual Village game and discovered my whole tribe perished. Sigh.
Rae wrote @ 15:48
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Disbelieved
My 400 bucks G Star jeans ripped just like that when I kneeled down just now.
WHAT THE FUCK.
I don't believe it.
Blogged via iPhone.
Rae wrote @ 20:46
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Jonesing for Japanese
Watching too much JDrama has left me jonesing for Japanese food, especially peach. Searched high and low for some peach fix but all I got is peach-in-syrup from the local supermarket. Failed to satisfy my craving, I made a trip to Meidi-ya after work. Silly me, peach's not in season so I settled for Aussie peaches instead. While I was there I bought some stuff to bring back home this Good Friday weekend. Yes, I'm going home!!! Bought some Morinaga pudding (oh goodness!), natto, frozen gyozas, mugicha satchets, yakon and many Meiji goodies. :D Was tempted to buy that ootoro but don't think I could finish the whole steak alone!
Anyway, while I was like-a-kid-in-the-candyshop at the Japanese grocery aisle, a familiar couple walked across and the girl glared at me. I raked my brain for the next 10 minutes to find out who they were. The guy; caucasian, blonde, mummy's boy face a la Matthew Broderick. The girl; Chinese, almost plat blonde, petite (oh so short!), fake eyelashes, fake nose, micro-mini shorts, rubber platform sandals who earns an income through blogging. Heh... do you know who she is?! Hahaha. I've always thought she might be different from what she projected herself in her blog but hey, from what I saw just now, I know she and I will never see eye to eye. For sure. But why the hell did she glare at me for anyway?
Putting that aside, I'm quite determined to restart my Japanese diet again. I did it for 3 months in late 2007 and they worked. My diet consisted Japanese food only, which was awesome as I lost about 2kg (2kg for my stature is a lot) but kinda burnt my wallet. Also, I've reapplied to join Kendo this year. Hopefully my boss agrees to my ahem, request to have permanent off or shift on Wednesday and Sunday.
Man, I love anything Japanese really. I think they have one of the most distinctive and fascinating culture in the world and they have a really beautiful language. And don't let me start with guys bearing katana in hakama *nosebleed*. Maybe I should get a Japanese boyfriend... one complete with Kansai-ben. XD
Rae wrote @ 22:10
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My Mega-Super Food
Broccoli. One of the yummiest thing in the world regardless how it's cooked. I absolutely love it. Rae wrote @ 02:05
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Tame the Free Spirit
I can't sleep. But I need sleep. I need to wake up at 7. And it's a demanding day tomorrow. Plus I'm sick. Sigh.
So I fucked one of the Kokology thingamabob up. I didn't like what was interpreted despite the good intention. It revealed so much about me as a person and I hate it. I hate it very very much.
My head's full of crap right now. Wondering why and how life goes. Why and how your life bound and marked by others and theirs by you. Example, for a while I hated my ex for fucking my life up over and over. I hated him very much so that I wished him a painful death. Now when I think back, did I somehow fuck his life up too? I'm no devil, but I'm no angel too. I have no feelings for him now. I don't curse him nor do I wish the best for him. Nonetheless he did change me. For good or worse I know not yet but I'd really like to think it was a good lesson for me.
After him, I met a string of men and they came from different walks of life. One was a student looking for a self-esteem boost. After him, it was a player who was searching for the answer and was someone who could be a real friend if you know how to handle him. Next was someone I wasn't able to relate to. Moving on was a much older man with the ahem, moolah who I thought would show me what life is but hell, I was wrong to the t. I was proved that maturity and wisdom don't always come with age. A younger man came into the picture afterwards but he got too cocky and I crossed the line. The aforementioned player became significant at this time of my life. Little did I know I got too involved and emotional. What came next was a relationship with another younger man. It didn't work as I became too independent and things were of different level between he and I. Soon after, my expectations proved to be difficult to be handled by another. This is the time when I wondered if I became too free-spirited and commitment-phobic.
Sadly, all didn't have a happy ending but they defined me. Each of these men set the benchmark. They made me realise what sort of person I want to be and who I want to spend my life with. I would love to blame them for fucking me up but then I'm pretty sure in some ways, I fucked them up too.
Look at the freaking time, it's 3.40 am. Man, at times like this, I wish I was a 7-year-old kid.
Labels: The Art of Love and Relationship
Rae wrote @ 03:40
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Homebound
It's my day off today and I had quite an itinerary planned.
- Lunch with a friend who I haven't been in contact with for quite a while.
- Visit Sasha Fierce.
- Visit The National Museum of Singapore for Christian Lacroix the Costumier.
- A 5km run.
I was quite excited about it since for the past weeks, I did nothing but coop myself up watching JDrama. Well, guess what. Today I'm doing exactly what I've done; coop up watching JDrama, all due to tonshitlitis. It hurt so so so so bad last night... *Cries*
I shouldn't dodge drag my tonsillectomy any longer, should I?
Anyway, I did finally finish Nodame Specials and I particularly like when Chiaki finally opened himself to Nodame. Oh so romantic.
By the way, I've come up with a plan.
Target: 30cm Rose Shocking Hermès Birkin in Chevre, about SGD13,500 (quoted at this time)
So I think I need to save SGD20K looking at the waiting list and I'm at about 2 years from now. So I have to save SGD850 per month, which I think still manageable. Yesh... Ganbatteyo! I can do it!
Rae wrote @ 18:03
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Broccoli. One of the yummiest thing in the world regardless how it's cooked. I absolutely love it. 
