Because Rae Says So

KL food must have been holding some grudges against me because I've been having tummy ache everyday since day one. And my skin's reacting. It seems most of the food here contain peanuts.
Internet sucks far out here compared to the one I've been using while I was in Singapore. It's 3 times more expensive and 15 times slower. A huge WTF to Celcom. And don't let me start on cabs over here.

A backdated entry.
God is beyond words. Just when I thought I had to deal with the toughest shit out there, He showed me He has a whole new level of challenge in store for mankind.

Here I am was, in the midst of writing my own dirge, I witness(ed) first hand the ultimate fall of a mere mortal. I cannot couldn't say much details but I relate. I could relate what sort of things going through his mind and what sort of feelings he feels. It's never easy dealing with someone who's suffering loss of his loved ones. I know. Because I've been there and I was someone who was difficult to deal with. Not a single kind word from friends went into my head. I buried myself in despair. I viewed my life with bleak hope. I felt absolutely shitty. My world sucked supremely. I wanted the world to cry with and for me. I wanted everything to just go away. I wanted God to give me back what He gave me.

It took me three months to wake up and smell the roses, oh, smell the shit to be exact. Well, hey from time to time, I still feel the tinge of pain but I have to live with it. Living with it doesn't mean letting myself immersing in the same futility that clutters and clogs my mind. I have to move on. I owe myself this much not to make myself unworthy again.

As for this man, it hurts even more. He's been hit below the belt. He shared with me what was wrong but I find it easy to understand why God let it happened and you and I will find that he's better off without. However, you and I are the ones sitting on the fence, we will never feel how excruciating it must be. Like any other, it's either he makes it or he breaks. I sincerely want to see him making it through because despite whatever that happened, he, as a human, deserves a break. As for the other party, I too hope for the best for her. Both are just trapped in something that has worn both so thin that they became brittle without knowing. It isn't the Devil. It is us, the mortals. He claimed that he made a mistake. I don't think it is a mistake. It is never a mistake when all you do is just giving yourself a chance to love and be loved. It is never a mistake to pursue what you think is happiness. Even then if you think it is, take it as God is giving you a chance to rectify your mistake. God doesn't want you to waste on futility.

Unfortunately, it comes with a long journey ride of extreme emotions.
I must say 2009 was probably the shittiest year for me. While shit took the centre stage, I learned humility. It took pain and despair for me to be kinder. OneRepublic sang my 2009 in their Marchin' On.

So the first KL club I shook my ass at was The Opera at Sunway. The interior was superb particularly the one upstairs. Oh it was absolutely W-O-W. Seriously. I've never stepped into such a gorgeous VIP area. Spin's mainstream and crowd-favourite while service was something commendable. But there was just one thing that I'm not sure at; lack of dancefloor space. How come? How come? HOW COME?????????? Malaysians do not like to dance?
Other than that, I'm good. :)

A brand new year. A brand new start. A brand new direction. A brand new everything for me.

:)

Google up Tamaya and Kagiya and you might find something interesting!

Hello. :D

Happy 2010 by the way.